Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Good Riddance Attention Whore

by Cindy Sheehan

I have endured a lot of smear and hatred since Casey was killed and
especially since I became the so-called “Face” of the American anti-war
movement. Especially since I renounced any tie I have remaining with the
Democratic Party, I have been further trashed on such “liberal blogs” as
the Democratic Underground. Being called an “attention whore” and being
told “good riddance” are some of the more milder rebukes.

I have come to some heartbreaking conclusions this Memorial Day Morning.
These are not spur of the moment reflections, but things I have been
meditating on for about a year now. The conclusions that I have slowly and
very reluctantly come to are very heartbreaking to me.

The first conclusion is that I was the darling of the so-called left as
long as I limited my protests to George Bush and the Republican Party. Of
course, I was slandered and libeled by the right as a “tool” of the
Democratic Party. This label was to marginalize me and my message. How
could a woman have an original thought, or be working outside of our
“two-party” system?

However, when I started to hold the Democratic Party to the same standards
that I held the Republican Party, support for my cause started to erode
and the “left” started labeling me with the same slurs that the right
used. I guess no one paid attention to me when I said that the issue of
peace and people dying for no reason is not a matter of “right or left”,
but “right and wrong.”

I am deemed a radical because I believe that partisan politics should be
left to the wayside when hundreds of thousands of people are dying for a
war based on lies that is supported by Democrats and Republican alike. It
amazes me that people who are sharp on the issues and can zero in like a
laser beam on lies, misrepresentations, and political expediency when it
comes to one party refuse to recognize it in their own party. Blind party
loyalty is dangerous whatever side it occurs on. People of the world look
on us Americans as jokes because we allow our political leaders so much
murderous latitude and if we don’t find alternatives to this corrupt “two”
party system our Representative Republic will die and be replaced with
what we are rapidly descending into with nary a check or balance: a
fascist corporate wasteland. I am demonized because I don’t see party
affiliation or nationality when I look at a person, I see that person’s
heart. If someone looks, dresses, acts, talks and votes like a Republican,
then why do they deserve support just because he/she calls him/herself a
Democrat?

I have also reached the conclusion that if I am doing what I am doing
because I am an “attention whore” then I really need to be committed. I
have invested everything I have into trying to bring peace with justice to
a country that wants neither. If an individual wants both, then normally
he/she is not willing to do more than walk in a protest march or sit
behind his/her computer criticizing others. I have spent every available
cent I got from the money a “grateful” country gave me when they killed my
son and every penny that I have received in speaking or book fees since
then. I have sacrificed a 29 year marriage and have traveled for extended
periods of time away from Casey’s brother and sisters and my health has
suffered and my hospital bills from last summer (when I almost died) are
in collection because I have used all my energy trying to stop this
country from slaughtering innocent human beings. I have been called every
despicable name that small minds can think of and have had my life
threatened many times.

The most devastating conclusion that I reached this morning, however, was
that Casey did indeed die for nothing. His precious lifeblood drained out
in a country far away from his family who loves him, killed by his own
country which is beholden to and run by a war machine that even controls
what we think. I have tried every since he died to make his sacrifice
meaningful. Casey died for a country which cares more about who will be
the next American Idol than how many people will be killed in the next few
months while Democrats and Republicans play politics with human lives. It
is so painful to me to know that I bought into this system for so many
years and Casey paid the price for that allegiance. I failed my boy and
that hurts the most.

I have also tried to work within a peace movement that often puts personal
egos above peace and human life. This group won’t work with that group; he
won’t attend an event if she is going to be there; and why does Cindy
Sheehan get all the attention anyway? It is hard to work for peace when
the very movement that is named after it has so many divisions.

Our brave young men and women in Iraq have been abandoned there
indefinitely by their cowardly leaders who move them around like pawns on
a chessboard of destruction and the people of Iraq have been doomed to
death and fates worse than death by people worried more about elections
than people. However, in five, ten, or fifteen years, our troops will come
limping home in another abject defeat and ten or twenty years from then,
our children’s children will be seeing their loved ones die for no reason,
because their grandparents also bought into this corrupt system. George
Bush will never be impeached because if the Democrats dig too deeply, they
may unearth a few skeletons in their own graves and the system will
perpetuate itself in perpetuity.

I am going to take whatever I have left and go home. I am going to go home
and be a mother to my surviving children and try to regain some of what I
have lost. I will try to maintain and nurture some very positive
relationships that I have found in the journey that I was forced into when
Casey died and try to repair some of the ones that have fallen apart since
I began this single-minded crusade to try and change a paradigm that is
now, I am afraid, carved in immovable, unbendable and rigidly mendacious
marble.

Camp Casey has served its purpose. It’s for sale. Anyone want to buy five
beautiful acres in Crawford, Texas? I will consider any reasonable offer.
I hear George Bush will be moving out soon, too…which makes the property
even more valuable.

This is my resignation letter as the “face” of the American anti-war
movement. This is not my “Checkers” moment, because I will never give up
trying to help people in the world who are harmed by the empire of the
good old US of A, but I am finished working in, or outside of this system.
This system forcefully resists being helped and eats up the people who try
to help it. I am getting out before it totally consumes me or anymore
people that I love and the rest of my resources.

Good-bye America…you are not the country that I love and I finally
realized no matter how much I sacrifice, I can’t make you be that country
unless you want it.

It’s up to you now.

Cindy Sheehan is the mother of Spc. Casey Austin Sheehan who was KIA in
Iraq on 04/04/04. She is a co-founder and President of Gold Star Families
for Peace and the author of two books: Not One More Mother’s Child and
Dear President Bush.

1 Comments:

Blogger TN420 said...

Cindy is a great lady. She's done Casey proud.

Democratic Underground is chock full of DLC centrist punks and would-be/wanna-be Liberals. The ones that voted for the Bush Democrats that have let Cindy, the Democratic Party, and their country down.

DU does not represent Democrats or Liberals either one. They represent the knee jerk flip-floppers that empower the neocon agenda.

Thank you, Cindy.

May 31, 2007 at 5:22 PM  

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